One month later

It has been a long month since my last post, two hospitalizations, lots of doctors visits, scan, bloods work, and other tests later I still don't have many answers.  I do know that they no longer think I have heart disease but because my pulse rate is still high I am on medicine, while the doctor who did my brain surgery say I am "healed" a large handful of doctors including a neurologist from Chicago that has now taken on my case things a lot if this can all be surgery related.

However, things have gotten better in many areas.  While I will most likely always have my stutter, therapy has gotten it to a point to where it is hardly noticeable, and when I am having trouble I now know how to handle it.  My walking and gate is much better and is still improving on its own without therapy, and although I am still really struggling with nausea and somethings vomiting the neurologist finally found a medication and dosage that works well.  Ability to pay attention is getting better, as well as memory.  I still get "brain" overload but not as much as before, and now I can recognize when it is coming and do things like take a nap to help myself.  Sean and Jeanly continue to be awesome people in my life and I also reconnected with some family and spent Easter with them.  I really enjoyed reconnecting with everyone and look forward to more time with them. 

In other news I am funding my way to a service dog.

The program I am doing in Illinois works with you closely and helps you train the dog.  Talk about an awesome bond.  Awesome but expensive hence the fundraising.  I have chosen an Australian Shepard and if you have any fund raising ideas let me know.  It will make post everything that has happened in the last few year a lot easier.

My godson Elijah also turned two earlier last week.  I know people say it all the time put really where does time go?  I feel like just yesterday I was holding him for the first time in the hospital.  I love the fact that he is my godson. He has an extreme love of Totoro, he only ever wants to eat cookies, he can be both extremely funny, yet stubborn, and the fact that he gets pay back on his older brother by jumping on him in the middle of the night waking him up cracks me up.  Sorry Isaac but it does.  That little boy was meant to be my godson in so many way. 

He is one cool little dude.

Flashback Tuesday

First, let's start out like we did last week by me telling you that on this day in history American Bombers dropped the atomic bomb on Hiroshima.  The explosion wiped out 90 percent of the city and immediately killed 80,000 people; tens of thousands more would later die of radiation exposure and other heath issues. Three days later,  a second bomb was dropped on Nagasaki, killing an estimated 40,000 people. Truman our president at the time has gone on record saying that he "never regrets" dropping the bombs.  This is not to make Truman out to be a bad man.  For him he was seeing the lesser of two evil, and the fact that Japan killed thousands of our men in the Pearl Harbor attacks on December 7th 1941.  

Had the Japanese not surrendered after the drop, Operation Downfall,  would have happened.  This would have been where an organized invasion of the Japanese mainland.   Joined with Operation Ketsugo, the Japanese defensive plan, devastation would have struck both sides. In a study done by the Joint Chief of Staff during the planning it was estimated that American casualties were an estimated 1.2 million, with 267,000 fatalities. Japanese civilian casualties were to be an estimated 5 million, as opposed to the 90,000–166,000 killed in Hiroshima and the 60,000–80,000 killed in Nagasaki. While the use of nuclear warfare proved to be devastating and continued to kill after the war was over, some say the cost has never outweighed the benefit, when one considers the lives saved on both sides due to President Truman’s decisive actions.  ( Source 1 and Source 2)

For me personally it is something that I pray never has to happen again.

And now if you are still with me after that long and sad history lesson I would like the Flash Back to the time I become a Godmother.

It all stated with this girl:

Liking this guy:

So they tied the knot:

And later had their first son:

Who later became a big brother:

To this guy:

Who I am the proud godmother of: 

But all that was not made officially until this awesome moment: 

Now even back before I knew Sean and Jeanly I knew I wanted to be a godmother.  It was on my life goal list and when I was asked I was delighted.   Meeting Sean and Jeanly had/ is such a huge blessing on my life in every way and I was overjoyed when they asked me.  I prayed everyday for him and his mom, started to write him letters that I will one day give him and was overall extremely  excited. Now that he is here I can say that he and his family are one the the best thinks that have entered my life.  Elijah is a constant source of joy.  He is most often my phone background because just seeing his face makes my day better.  I have even told other friends that I cannot imagine what a mother feels for their children because of how much I love that little guy and his brother.  I look forward to the joy I will one day feel when he learn to say "Rachel" like his older brother did, but I also look forward to watching him grow up with the guide of his amazing parents.  Watching him and helping him learn about his faith, spoiling him and above all making sure that he always knows how awesome he is, how is was chosen for this world even before I dreamed of being a godmother, that he is God's favorite and above all that he will always have a place in my heart and nothing he can ever do will take that away. 

Especially when you make a face like this:

Top 5

One the the greatest joys of my life has been becoming a godmother.  However sometimes I say things that make me question any further godchildren.

The top 5 are:

1.  When mother of my godson was saying he will not sleep more than 3 hours at a time at night; "I have a small bottle of whisky in my trunk, we can always rub that on his gums."

2.  When older brother of my adorable godson will not stay in bed; "That is what cages are for."

3. When godson fall and starts to cry; " eh what does not kill him will make him stronger."

4. When older brother throws a temper tantrum; " Life is so hard right now, but you know what it is only gonna get harder!"

5. and lastly.  " You can always lock him in his room, and put food through the doggie 
door." 


Good thing both parents know I will never act upon these things and continue to let me come around.

And man do I love these boys!


Oh and there is also this.... but if taught I am in charge of the medical bills.... http://slowrobot.com/i/43468